This week I kind of got a wakeup call; there is nothing wrong with me. I was doing my usual searching WordPress for interesting blog entries when I came across a post about black women. Excuse me, a POSITIVE post about black women; yes I had to make that clear. Anyway, I can’t remember the blog because it’s not the important part of this post; the important part was the link it provided, http://blackandcurvy.tumblr.com/. A whole Tumblr page dedicated to black women who are curvy, plus size, and full-figured. It’s very rear to have a site that focuses on the beauty that is a black woman. All women are beautiful, but I have to be a little bias here because I am a black woman and I know the struggle of a black woman as it pertains to beauty.
The thing that really made me smile is the fact that they featured larger woman. Me being someone who is plus size (I prefer that over the term full-figured), or for some people “fat”. I smile because, being plus size (overweight) all my life I have always felt like an outcast and never really felt like I belonged. Growing up was almost like torture for me because I’d get teased everyday because of my size (and height). I never really felt beautiful and people always made that clear that I wasn’t unless I lost weight. I can’t tell you how many times I have gotten the comment “you have such a pretty face, if you lost weight you’d look so much better.” Why would you even say that to someone! A lot of that contributed to my introversion, but I know for sure I was born introverted. Okay, that’s another post all on its own.
Looking through these pictures really made me look at how I look at myself. These women look happy with how they look; it really shows through the screen. This page made me say “forget what they think.” I am just going to be the weird fat girl that I have always been. Of course my health is important and I am currently working on that. I don’t want to be a size 0, 2, 4, 6, or even an 8. I’d be happy being a size 10 or 12 and I know I can do it. In the meantime, I am just going to be happy with the person I am now and let everything else fall into place.
To the person who made this amazing page thank you very much. Not only have you helped me feel better, but I know you have made a couple of other black women out there feel better as well.